Friday, April 15, 2011

Dance for Jesus: Dance for Jesus: Brie's Story

Dance for Jesus: Dance for Jesus: Brie's Story: "Dance for Jesus: Brie's Story: 'My name is Sarah Hackett, and I'm an educator in Lexington, South Carolina. A little of my history: I g..."

Dance for Jesus: Brie's Story

Dance for Jesus: Brie's Story: "My name is Sarah Hackett, and I'm an educator in Lexington, South Carolina. A little of my history: I graduated from Shorter College (now S..."

Brie's Story

My name is Sarah Hackett, and I'm an educator in Lexington, South Carolina. A little of my history: I graduated from Shorter College (now Shorter University) in December 2000 and taught high school science at Briarwood Christian School in Birmingham, AL for two years before deciding to go back to school. I graduated from the University of Alabama in December 2007 with a master's degree and moved to Lexington, SC to teach high school science. My then boyfriend PJ Hackett became my husband on October 25, 2008.

We got pregnant with our first child in early April 2010. I had a "perfect" pregnancy alongside my sister Bethany Davis who was due the same day as I was, December 15, 2010. Bethany gave birth to her son Gabriel on November 30, 2010, and our daughter Brie slipped away the next day December 1. We were completely devastated to discover that our sweet Brie Brie's umbilical cord was not formed correctly. This malformation was only about 1/4 inch and had twisted about 5 times. In all of the research I have done, it seems that babies in this scenario adjust and compensate during the pregnancy so there is no indication anything is wrong. Sadly the cord twists until the baby can do longer compensate, and she simply slipped away.
I was induced on December 3rd and gave birth to our beautiful baby girl, Brienna "Brie" Katherine Hackett. She was 20 and 1/4 inches and weighed 5 pounds 11 ounces. With a full head of dark brown hair, she was a clone of her daddy. I have always made fun of his cute "elfish" ears, and Brie had the same ears. She also had his toes. The only part of me in my daughter were her fingers.
We had a photographer from the Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep Foundation who came and took professional pictures of our daughter. We had a dedication service for her on December 5th and our close family was present as we all said goodbye to a little girl we were not ready to say goodbye to. On February 12th, we laid her ashes to rest at a memorial garden here in town.

The purpose of this blog is to have an outlet to talk about my daughter, her relationship to me during the pregnancy, the dreams I had for her, everything I miss about her and things that have helped me deal with the grief. I hope that this blog will be therapeutic to other mothers in my position as well as a place I can simply share my feelings without judgment or condemnation.